LookiNg foR My bRokeBaCk*

Just the other night, I watched “Brokeback Mountain” on DVD. I believe the movie was a hit but then some friends warned me that I might fall asleep while watching the movie. For the record, I didn’t fall asleep. Actually, I found myself contemplating after I watched the movie. It was such a sad story. It made me feel sad. Very seldom would a movie take an effect on me after watching it. Surprisingly, this movie is one of those. I was intrigued before of how the movie would go having an unusual theme. But then as I watched the movie, the story itself caught me.

The film tells a story about forsaken love due to the confirmation to society. But through time, they realized how deep their feelings are for each other that they even found a way to still be connected and be together. What caught me here was the realization that time itself cannot erase or change what a person really feels. They both have their own lives and yet, they still find themselves longing for each other. It made me realize how regretful it will be to walk away from something or someone who really means a lot to you. That no matter what we do, if the feeling is true, it will never leave us and we will eventually find ourselves looking forward the day to be with the one we really love. They may be wrong about the lies they keep from their families and their love can never justify what they do but still, I somehow admire how they find a way to express their love for each other. That they’d even go beyond their boundaries. I’m not saying that I favor infidelity. It will never be right. It’s just that I find their love to be very powerful that it binds them through time.

I even envy them for they have the “Brokeback Mountain” to go back to every time. I’ve lost a love and like them, it would be very wrong to have the flame back because like them, we both have our own commitments. But unlike them, I have no idea if I’d be able to express myself on the other line. Until now, I’m wishing for my own “Brokeback Mountain” to go back to.