ReMaininG pieCes*

i've lost a piece.. and it affected the most part of me.. almost every detail of what i am was altered.. unconsciously.. i was secluding myself from the people and things that surround me.. i was pretty much close to devastation.. regret was suffocating me.. i sank in sadness.. i let myself drown into sorrow.. i grieved.. and i let all the pain dwell upon me..

i drowned.. and by drowning.. i started to see things in a clearer view.. i've been illuminated by a thought that would have never come to me if i locked myself up in denial of the pain.. and though i went through a hard time contemplating on my miseries.. i've come to realize that all the feelings: regrets, sadness, and sorrow.. all of them commenced from our own decisions.. we are all in charge of our feelings and we should never let our feelings take in charge of us.. it is for us to decide on how are we going to respond on the events of our life.. and with that i have come up with a decision..

i've made a decision.. i don't want to live a life full of 'what might have been', 'if only' and 'what ifs'.. i don't want to get used to the sentiment of sadness, loneliness, and sorrow.. though it's impossible to forget that phase of my life, it will be all 'that was' for me.. most importantly.. i've decided not to get hurt every time my eyes will gaze at that empty space in my puzzle..

i may have lost a piece.. but there are still pieces remaining in my puzzle that I need to take care of and hold firmly in their place.. and though my puzzle will be left incomplete.. i believe that new pieces will come to me and though nothing could replace and fit in that empty space.. i know that i could still build another puzzle out of the new pieces that will soon arrive..